My pregnancy was exceptionally straightforward. Almost textbook. I was so well, and carried on working with young children right up until I was 38 weeks. I even felt like I could’ve kept going…
And my pregnancy did keep going! My due date came and went and I was still pregnant. 41 weeks came…and I was still pregnant. Finally, at 41+4 I started to feel more than just 'a little uncomfortable'. I laboured at home for most of the day, and soon the time came to head to the midwife-led birthing centre.
I had the most beautiful labour overnight, although it was extremely long and very tiring. I was preparing for the water birth I had dreamed of.
Suddenly things changed. Midwives rushed around, and an ambulance was called. I was blue-lighted to our local hospital and rushed straight into theatre.
Theo was stuck and they needed to get him out. Now.
12.03pm and our beautiful son entered the world via forceps. Silent.
The midwife placed him on my chest and began rubbing his back and chest desperately to get him to draw a big breath. A big breath that never came.
They whisked him away and onto the Resuscitaire to assist him with his breathing. I remember a tiny voice coming out of my mouth as I asked ‘Is he OK?’ and no one responded. I tried asking again a little louder.
'Is he OK?'
Still no response.
'Is he OK?!' I said a third time, even louder.
Theo’s dad Matt eventually answered me.
'They’re just giving him a little bit of help with breathing. He’s going to be OK.'
'We need to take him to NICU. Dad, do you want to come with us, or stay with mum?' The doctor who was looking after Theo asked Matt. He looked at me for an answer. 'Go with him. Don’t leave him.'
I was taken into recovery and eventually joined by my mum who had been waiting outside. After a what felt like an eternity, I was allowed to go downstairs to be by Theo’s bedside.