My baby daughter Rosie was born prematurely when I was 32+3weeks pregnant. I woke up and noticed blood in the toilet and realised it was coming from me.
My instant thought was that I was losing my baby.
My pregnancy had been low risk up to this point but when I went to the hospital I was told I was in labour and that I had an infection.
I spent two days in hospital, had two rounds of steroids and things to slow down my labour and eventually it stopped. I was sent home in shock but thinking that my baby would arrive in February as planned. One day later my waters broke.
My baby arrived on a Saturday morning and I knew I had to stay calm throughout the birth to keep my baby calm. But I didn’t realise that she would be taken away from me. I got to look at her and I kept shouting her name in the hope she would hear my voice whilst her breathing tube was inserted. Then she was taken off to the NICU.
I remember being terrified to see her, would I recognise her? Would she know me? Each time I saw her I had to check she was my baby.