At ten days overdue, I was admitted into hospital because of reduced movements though at first it wasn’t obvious that something was wrong. It wasn’t until I was pretty late into labour when I started to feel really unwell. Then a test showed my baby’s oxygen levels were very low and suddenly, doctors rushed into the room with a crash team and to speed things along, I had to have a forceps delivery.
Lewis was born the next morning, weighing 8lb 4oz. He didn’t move. He didn’t cry. He wasn’t even breathing. The doctors performed CPR on him and, after what felt like forever, he let out a tiny little cry. I was allowed to hold him quickly but then I had to go into surgery as I had suffered a third-degree tear and Lewis was taken to the NICU.
I hadn’t been on the postnatal ward long when I saw a doctor and a midwife talking and looking at me through the window. I knew something was wrong and my heart sank. They walked into the ward, shut the curtains around my bed and I will never forget what the doctor said next. “I’m sorry to tell you but your baby is very sick. We suspect he has significant brain damage. He is fitting and needs to be transferred to a specialist unit for cooling to reduce any further brain damage”. I asked him if Lewis would survive and he told me it was likely that he might not recover. My world fell apart. I just sobbed and sobbed.